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[09 Apr 2008|12:04am]
so on saturday i got kicked out of the club for punching my ex friend in the face.


and when i saw him at work he had a bruise under his eye.....

and everyone thinks im so nice.

no i wasnt drunk lol
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[05 Apr 2008|09:56pm]
tonight  i will smile because i love me for me.

come what may...i will love you me, until my dyinnnnnnng dayyyyyyy!!!! lol 

anywho...i hope everyone is doing good :)

[31 Mar 2008|11:25pm]
 Sitting here watching my high roommate watch zack and cody makes me chuckle.

Life is pretty good right now.
I painted my room yesterday and i started on the path to happiness.

For so long i've been co-depndent...so....so long now. But yesterday a change came over me and i figured that things will only happen for me if i make them happen.
I was just watching Under The Tuscan Sun...great movie. In some way i felt like Diane Lane...only i'm not in europe and i didn't buy a villa in Italy. I bought some maroon paint, some candles,curtains,and a book and called it a day.
This is the dawn of a new day. LOL. No but for real....it's going to be a good time in my life.
Schools starting for me again in May...i'm so ancy and excitied to sit in class and listen to lecture...and write papers, and take notes...lol my roomate just said my typing is annoying.

anyway i'll stop before he kicks me out and doesn't let me use his computer anymore...lol

Claps and Kisses to you all.

[24 Mar 2008|06:56pm]
 personal goals for this week.
-gym everyday
-breakfast everyday
-1,000 crunches a day
-cook josh dinner
-paint room
-pay rent
-take at least one spinning class
-no bread
-rubberbands everyday.

i dunno just to say a few.

im gettin' swole.



[23 Mar 2008|11:33pm]
 I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe, maybe,maybe, yeah maybe

One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe, maybe,maybe, yeah maybe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might

Maybe, love maybe

[19 Mar 2008|01:51pm]
i love my roomate nelson.
i love miguel too but it's different now that we live together.


so im doing great and i love it.
my new bedroom set is being set up in my room as we speak
i got a promotion at work. holler.
i met jennifer aniston...and she's touched me twice so far. We joked together...she's amazing.
she's like me new favorite.
so down to earth and humble.

i saw jay-z yesterday as well lol.\

im going to the gym soon.
omg i never thought i'd ever actually run on a treadmill for more than a minute lol..

love you all 
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[11 Mar 2008|03:41pm]
Hell seems to have frozen over.
I deleted my myspace.

I felt i was becoming dependent on it.
like i needed to hear nice things about my pictures to know that i was great.

i know now...i don't need that in my life.

I will no longer feel sorry for myself everytime i am hurt.
No longer will i cry for days.

I feel so great to have just filtered out so many things i dont need.

im going to start doing things alone...and doing things for me
because i'm sure one day i'll be alone...whether for a long time or short it'll happen and i'll be ready for it.

I am in a place right now that i can say...i am happy to be me. for once i am comfortable in my own skin.

this is real and i'm going to live life day by day.
wake up and breath in and out...

thanks. tis' all. 

so..... [23 Jan 2008|11:33am]
[ mood | crappy ]

i asked him...
"what don't you like about me?"
he says
"in all honesty?"
yes of course!
"the clinginess"

i'm clingy.

this is where i stop investing so much of myself.
and where i let him call and him worry and him care.
i'm done clinging.

P.S. Why is it that Britney Spears never wears bras?

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don't tazer me bro! [21 Sep 2007|10:37am]

i'm happy.
right now
this second.

we'll see how i feel later lol

either way the definition in my stomach is starting to show more and more as i crunch my way to abdominal success.

i love you all.
and i come here just to check up on everyone's lives.
i'm glad you are all still alive.

off to work
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[04 Aug 2007|12:37pm]

                                                                                    i will now be working at the Mandarin Oriental Miami.

[21 May 2007|01:09pm]



the pictures do her no justice man. she is gorgeous in person.

12:30 sat morning: me jess and val arrived from Miami at 12:30pm to the House of Blues. There were already people in front of us with chairs and blankets. The security was very nice and treated us wonderfully.The line was an experience; everyone in line was being teased by people in downtown Disney and paparazzi.

8:00pm (as planned) the doors were about to open. Britney’s cousin and assistant Allie came out to the line to select a guy to go onstage and what not. The hour went incredibly slow but everyone was pumped. Allie came out again to select a guy for Britney. She chose the guy right next to me and it was so nice what she did afterward. Allie actually came out into the audience and spoke to some of the fans. I told her that she was beautiful in person and she said with her country accent “THANK YOU!!” The guy had to come back into the audience and he said that he had met Britney and that she was very nice. There was a window backstage that the audience could see and it was britney’s dressing room. She came to the window to wave like 3 or 4 times. It kept everyone anxious.

9:30- Britney was on time! She came out with her dancers and mouthed her way through the first couple of songs. The thing about the not singing part was basically this…everyone knew. But no one cared. The fact that we all paid 35 dollars to be two feet away from our idol was enough for us. Call it dumb, delusional whatever you want. But when the CD started to skip my heart dropped and everything was so unreal. Britney did look worried but she smiled when the cheering got louder and everyone went crazy. I think everyone in the audience needed to show their support as the pop idol crumbled before our eyes. But then Britney kept going and thanked the audience after the song. What Britney did next was pretty smart. SHE SANG. For toxic which was the last song Britney Spears sang with her own voice. She sounded great. I thought to myself I don’t understand why she doesn’t sing live if she sounded fine. It was a smart move on her part, but it didn’t stop everyone within 10 feet of the concert hall from saying “CAN YOU BELIEVE THE CD SKIPPIED?!”

All in all it was a great experience. I don’t think it was a disaster and none hated her, but I do think she should use this as a learning experience.


[11 May 2007|09:07am]
the fact that i am going to prom this year....makes me feel like i am going two steps back instead of forward.
the gwen stefani concert was WONDERFUUUUL.
i had great seats and such...and wow gwen is so cute and sweet and YEAH.
The Christina concert was just as good but on a different level.
her voice was like WHOA.

you don't REALLY appreciate an artists craft until you see them work and do what they do.
I respect performers so g'damn much.
and all of gwen and christinas dancers...wow man...they were spot on everytime..
i never noticed dancers before but now it's like sheesh they work hard.

speaking of dancers i met one of the Harajuku girls after the show and told her she did an awesome job. And one of the guy dancers introduced himself to me, jessica and carlos before the show started because we were sitting close to his dad.
Seeing how proud his dad was of his dancer son was so cool man.

i am feeling happy for once...due in part to the support system i have..aka jessica and aileen and all those others that tell me...I am worth it...


peace dykes.

[06 May 2007|08:57pm]

you go girl!
im jealous.

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[27 Apr 2007|01:35pm]
Never Again

I hope the ring you gave to her
Turns her finger green
I hope when you’re in bed with her
you think of me
I would never wish bad things
But I don’t wish you well
Could you tell
By the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
Cause I knew what you’d say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try make it all okay

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
bet it sucks
to see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you would do
Don’t say
You simply lost your way
She may believe you
But I never will
Never again

If she really knows the truth
She deserves you
A trophy wife Oh, how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
And he’s through with you
And he’ll be through with you
You’ll die together, but alone
You wrote me in a letter
You couldn’t say it right to my face
Well, give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away
[ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ]

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you were doing
Don't say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
Never again

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you were doing
Don’t say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
I Never Will
I never will
Never again

[18 Apr 2007|10:42pm]

it's over.
my wonderful 3 days is over.

im a good person.
people take advantage of good people.

fuck thiiiiiiiiiiiiis

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[10 Apr 2007|12:51pm]
i have ten minutes left of a lunch break so i'll make this worth my while.
So this thing called college is going fast. I feel like just yesterday i was working at Publix.
I love reading everyones entires about what their lives consist of.

I Love You, You're Perfect, Now Change starts tomorrow and i can't wait until it's over!!!!!!!
the fact that i haven't been to the gym in almost two months makes me sad. It used to be such a wonderful part of my day.
If anyone is interested in seeing me move furniture and saying two lines, or seeing ally "work it" in comedic musical theatre...then come watch it!
i don't know what else i have to do to sell it to ya. lol
I was up in Orlando for my sisters cheerleading competition this weekend and i think i missed my calling lol.
God knows i would love to be as cool as those guys that do those back flips and such.

I'm going to San Francisco for a week in June. It should be fun
and my parents are leaving me and the house alone for 3 weeks in June as well.
oh dear.

i need love.

so everyone that i miss...call me so we can catch up and stuff...I'll try my best to stop being a dickwad.

I love you all.

Tminus two minutes until i listen to fat people whine about how they haven't lost any weight and they have been following all of their points.

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[26 Jan 2007|09:13pm]
if you do anything this week. listen to my girl.

anyway. i've been lost for a while from most people's lives.
it's sad. but true.

in any case...i'll be moving to SAN DIEGO, California within the next year.

i love myself...
i must keep repeating this. :-)
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[15 Jan 2007|12:31pm]

when i'm a celebrity.
everything will be alright.

i wish i could act all day.

i hate this new boring "adult" life.

it's boring.
grown-ups are boring.

allys stepmom told me i looked very good(aka skinnier.)
she made my week.

jon and jen was very nice,
except for those fucking MCT kids that don't respect fellow performers.

i love to hear ally sing.
it's relaxing.
im going to see wicked.
12 rows from the stage.

goodbye world.

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[01 Jan 2007|04:14pm]
reading old LiveJournal entires makes me sick.
I sound so dumb lol.

And when i read this one months from now i'll probably feel the same exact way.

Happy 2007 everyone.
I have my resolutions but everytime i tell people about them they don't happen.
I'll wait until the sun sets on this year to tell you if i accomplished any of em.

So im home alone ALLLLLLLLLL week.
sound fun?!
you bet.

call me up.

Love you all.

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